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BALLET is the BOMB!
Oct. 20th, 2009 | 10:20 pm
oh my gosh i love ballet!
so glad i went for the master classes conducted by royal ballet pros! it was really good, i really enjoyed it too. oh yes, really grateful that Grace was there too! i thought i would be alone, so scary la. haha, luckily Grace went! We had two teachers, one male and one female. the male teacher, Mr Justin is really cool and pro! he is quite good-looking too. haha, sadly i didn't snap a picture with him. oh my gosh, haha. his pirouettes are the bomb man, triple turns with a balance into a perfectly lifted temp level ( ok i don't know how to spell it ).whooohoooo, really cool to have him conduct the ballet class on the second day. the variation was nice too but i think the female teacher kind of gave up on us. haha. it was difficult especially when it's en pointe! oh yes yes, we also learnt how to tie our pointe shoes properly. after the master classes i realised that for all these years, i have been tying my pointe shoes in the wrong way, haha. embarrassing to the max! i'm sure i gained a lot after the master classes though it was only for two days. anyway to conclude, ballet requires the full use of our body and BRAIN! it's true!
results results results! By now, i already know my fate and that is .... TO BE PROMOTED TO J2! i passed all my subjects and i met the special criteria for the retainees which is to pass everything! YAY! i'm so glad! i guess hard work really pays off! i think i was the happiest during econs because i passed it with a C! i was so freaking scared that i would fail it. got an E for history and it was a mark away from D. DAMN IT! haha. i'm happy for myself and i'm glad i dont have to worry about being kick out of school:) however, i freaking hate my shitass history teachers. yupp, the both of them, both international history and southeast asia history teacher. i don't care if they found my lj and are reading this now because I DON'T FREAKING GIVE A DAMN SINCE YOU TWO DIDN'T EVEN GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ME! suck shit la, ask me to drop the subject when i freaking passed it. they were so hurtful la, aren't teachers suppose to be encouraging? at least i freaking improve right? wah lao, i even said bye to them. ok maybe i shouldn't have said ' see you next year ' to them because that gave them a chance to say ' drop history la Jia Jia, then i don't need to see you next year ' . oh like what the hell, they were not even joking la. AHHHHH! i'm glad i passed everything because when one of them asked me what about my other subjects, i proudly told them off ' i passed everything '. ahhhh, ask them go eat shit la, i could see how sour their faces were when they hear that i am able to promote. is that how teachers are suppose to treat students? why are they begging me to drop history when i freaking improved and even passed it this time round? I HATE MY HISTORY TEACHERS! i'll show you two that i will do well and get an A for history in A levels. by then i'll be able to mock you guys and show how worthy i am.
thank you lao da for being there to comfort me. i felt so hurt at that point of time that it spoilt the rest of my day :(
getting back maths and GP tmr. although i know my grades for those two already, i still hope that the marks will be high enough to make me happy!
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PROMO EXAM DAY 3 ---> THE FINAL DAY
Oct. 8th, 2009 | 09:22 pm
mood: 
hyper
many many things i wanna do! read harry potter books, watch movies, transform my wardrobe, meet up with friends and of course DANCE DANCE DANCE! whoohoo, can't wait can't wait! YAY! oh yeh, we are going to get back our papers like next next monday and tuesday and i think that's really fast. i guess i'll be very scared upon receiving my results. it determines my fate! haha. don't worry, i'll stay in the school and take A levels next year! i will! anyway, they are going to have some special GP and PE programmes for the retainees and i don't really look forward to it. haha, hopefully its fun. the rest of the JC1 will be digging their heads in PW and MTL.
ahhhhahahahah, went to si hui's house today after lunch with 09A05! only some of us went, and we played GUITAR HERO. freaking fun! i'll not forget how i nearly died drumming through the song "overkill". haha. cool shit, thanks SE HUI (haha) for inviting us to your house! haha, it was really fun!
5 days free from sch! coolie woolie!
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PROMO EXAM DAY 2
Oct. 5th, 2009 | 04:59 pm
i'm glad that my papers are all clump together.
can't imagine sitting for a paper tmr
after having suffered (and still suffering) through flu attack yesterday and today.
my nose is killing me and i kept sniffing away during the exam.
luckily it wasn't that bad during econs,
if not i'll just give up man.
it got worse during gsc but doesn't really affect the paper so doesn't matter :)
anyway,
couldn't finish my econs paper yet again when it was actually an easy paper.
boohoo,
i just hope to pass.
the case study was relatively easy and the essays were fine too.
oh but such a pity i couldn't make use of the 3M policy in my externality essay,
after so much effort memorising the policy last night.
haha,
oh well, the paper was fine, just hope that i'll pass.
GSC was good, haha, one essay and one summary only.
haha, i'm sure i'll pass my gsc.
whoohooo.
i really hope my nose will get better by tmr,
i need to chiong all the way for my maths on thursday.
i need to ace it!
i need my A for maths!
oh yes,
poor Vivian is also sick, take care ok vivian.
thanks to BFFZ, lao da and phang ying-gay for the smses
GSC=can pass:)
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great day today:)
Oct. 4th, 2009 | 12:16 am
i love it so much!
i think i'm starting to open up to my mummy.
i love her so much.
i always thought that my mummy wouldn't understand but no no no, she rocks.
she even shared with me some of her stories.
haha. coolie woolie.
i am sure i know that there is someone at home
whom will be more than willing to lend me that listening ear
and give me great advices!
whooohooo.
I LOVE MY MUMMY!
promos promos promos! lalala! i can do it:)
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PROMO EXAM DAY1
Oct. 2nd, 2009 | 09:26 pm
mood: 
tired
it was crazy!
an hour and a half each for the two GP papers and 3 freaking hours for history!
wah, that was a total of 5 and a half essays today man!
my pen ink literally dropped by half! HAHA!
anyway, i'm quite confident that i will pass both GP and history,
it was relatively manageable.
ok, but i must admit that time management was a problem for my GP paper 2.
oh well, but i guess overall was fine:)
i was so glad i was able to squeeze in most of the info into my brain
like during the 3 hr break before history. because,
i only managed to finish studying Indo-Pak war the previous night. haha.
surprisingly,
my hand didn't ache as much
despite writing 4 essays and using 2 papers for each essay.
i think i finally learnt the art of writing without tension in the arm muscle.
haha!
oh but the air con suck like shit la.
my whole hand was numb at the last half an hour of the paper
and it hurt as i wrote. the worst thing was,
i was already feeling fidgety by that time
and the numbness of my hand wasn't much of a help.
ahahaha, i felt this sense of victory when i finish my history paper.
it felt like WAH,
i actually managed to last through a 3 hr history paper
without stopping to waste and kill time.
oh my gosh, whooohooo.
next hurdle will be econs paper and gsc paper on monday :)
jia you jia you!
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HISTORY!
Sep. 30th, 2009 | 03:26 pm
mood: bouncy
just finish making notes for causes of indo-pak war:)
wah lao eh, haha, i am half dead already. hahaha.
there is this funny feeling in me that makes me feel like laughing
oh no, am i going crazy? haha, i guess its good too
being able to detach myself from stressful promo.
lalalalalalalalalalalalala
i feel promo is like our 2.4 km napfa test (ok maybe not that short, um 24km? haha)
requires determination, perseverance, optimism and most imptly,
STAMINA!
hahaha, ok i can feel my stamina building and i want to persevere!
whooohooo, exciting ride towards promos! ahhhhhahaha, eccentric me:)
ok, i must admit that i have a whole lot more to study,
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PROMOS!
Sep. 29th, 2009 | 10:17 pm
mood: 
crazy
:):(:):(:):(:):(:):(:):(:):(:):(:):(:):(
bleah! can't can't wait for it to end when it hasn't even started! oh so what the hell!
anyway, today was the slackest timetable i ever had. frustrating to the max
ok, but i must admit that i didn't regret staying back for PE, haha. fun afterall.
history is sucking my brain dry,
econs is making my time fly,
GP gives me a will to try,
GSC, i hope i won't die,
maths maths oh that's my life!
ahh crap la, going crazy crazy. i guess soo far i'm only confident about maths. lalalala
oh my gosh, what the hell is wrong with me?
PROMOS PROMOS PROMOS!
AHHHHHH!
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:)
Sep. 24th, 2009 | 10:19 pm
mood: energetic
oh yeh, i must say yesterday was a really cool day. haha, the taxi driver was such a good driver man, such a pity i couldn't rmb his name, if not i'll probably go write in to compliment him or something. haha, the ride was so freaking cool and i only took like 7 to 10 mins to reach school. it felt like a roller coaster ride, but not the type where you feel like throwing up. haha. cool cool ride. oh i was late for school BUT, no one was there to mark down the latecomers! haha, so everyone just happily walked into the school through the main gate without anybody stopping us. how cool is that? haha, freaking cool! haha.
anyway, i guess sometimes i just think too much, and i think as time goes by, i can control my feelings much better. i feel much much better now and all set to challenge the big thing called promos! haha, i feel so happy to be smiling and feeling true happiness:) happy me, that's what i always wanted!
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fluctuating emotions :(
Sep. 21st, 2009 | 08:13 pm
Hi, i'm here yet again, trying to find some cure to the way i'm feeling. ahhhh! can't take it anymore, why does it come and go and come again? i hate this. ahhhhh! my gosh, just stop doing this to me! my emotions are fluctuating and its really reaching the extremes! ahhhh, sometimes i don't even know what i'm feeling. i feel so weird and eccentric, i feel like my life is all in a mess. sometimes i don't even know what i'm saying also. ahhhhhh, i'm going crazy!
anyway, on a better note, i sense some hope from THE dance company. at least i know i'm not kicked out, oh maybe i hope i'm not? yeh, because they are holding a meeting for the youth group this thursday and i'm included. i think this is at least something that i should be happy about, after all i have been thinking of going back and missing the times where i dance there. yeh, i really miss dancing, like those intensive kind.
the upcoming promos is killing me and its making me feel very alone. its like, i am battling the promos alone. maybe it is this way, i'm losing everyone, if you know what i mean. hai, ahhhhhhh, suck to the max.
I WILL PULL THROUGH ALL THIS CRAP!
~ i love you still and hope you will still be willing to spend some time with me.
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i'm better:)
Sep. 20th, 2009 | 09:56 pm
today wasn't a productive day for me at all, kept sleeping. i guess its because i only slept at 4 last night. haha, webcam-ed with celeste kwan si mun last night till 4. haha, well well, it was fun catching up with her, but it was at a really odd hour. haha. let's meet up after my promos!
although today wasn't very productive, i felt much better. at least something is better about me now. i guess when i feel better, i can study better. yes i can do it! i think i'm going to stay back for night study everyday. i just have to sleep early when i go home. i can do it. today my mum kept distracting me when i'm studying. she kept commenting on the tv shows and just neglect the fact that i'm studying. hai, i think maybe this is also the reason why i want to stay for night study all the way till promos.
i don't think i'll want to ask you to study with me already. after how you have hurt me,my good friend.
tomorrow will be a better day. a better day for studying, a better day for my feelings:)
i love you dear :) i hope you see this:)
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HOPEFUL!
Sep. 20th, 2009 | 01:37 am
mood: 
hopeful
HAPPY BIRHTDAY SELINA!
today was a much better day. i felt much better. i went for teaching today, but ony for the 3.30 class. went to change bus at eunos and i don't know why, i just decided to walk past your tuition centre to i don't know, sense your presence? yeh, then i just sat at the seats in the CC for half an hour, just waiting, before i get on the bus to macpherson at 3. yes, i was waiting, probably for a miracle to happen. it was raining outside and i just felt comfortable sitting there waiting. although i know i am waiting for nothing, i just felt that i should, just sit and wait.
teaching has always been a joy to me. the smiles from the kids just cheers me up. just like how this little baby smiled at me on the bus yesterday. she just made me felt better from my shitty mood. i went for inter-found class with jalene after the 3.30 class and it was really good. we did free work and i felt so happy just dancing. i guess dancing heals me, its just like a medicine for me. haha. oh yeh, went to have a mini birthday celebration for selina at cafe cartel in the evening with jalene, jing yi and alcinda. love them to the max! i had a really great time with them and i felt so happy just talking and laughing with them. we had starbucks after that, but only with jalene and selina. we talked for so long, about everything and it felt so good, like i could just sit there and talk to them all night. i didn't feel like leaving. i felt so comfortable telling them my problems and sharing thoughts about dance with them! oh yes yes, jing is like a big sister to us, she gives great advices and whatever she says really enlightens me! thanks jing! anyway, i really felt very happy just spending time with them.
I AM GOING TO MISS YOU JALENE! VERY VERY MUCH! I'M GOING TO CHERISH THE TIME WITH YOU BEFORE YOU LEAVE!
i'm really glad i have great friends by my side. i guess i was too depressed to notice that there are people around me who cares about me and are willing to hear me out. i guess i've neglected the fact that i am very bless with all the friends that i have. i'm really very grateful for sk especially! she has always been the one who will be there no matter what just to make me feel better! thank you so much sk! you are so very important to me! soulmate forever! thank you celeste too! you are still as caring as ever even though we aren't as close now. i am really going to meet up with you one day yeh. i'm really glad that i didn't lose you as a friend!
mug mug mug! i'm going to study hard hard to prove to you and you and you and you that i am going to do much better! with my friends around me, i know i can pull through! all these sadness are just distractions that hinder me to go further. i know each time i recover i will become stronger and tougher!
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SHIT!!!
Sep. 18th, 2009 | 11:21 pm
today was yet another day where i felt extreme feelings. yeh, extremely happy and extremely sad all in one day. well of course, sadness will always be the one overpowering me. got back international history test paper today and for the first time, i passed! yeh, after adding it up with my SEA history test result, i got an E! really happy and it really motivated me to work hard for my promos. now, why sad, ... because of many things.
especially you, you being my good friend actually said such hurtful words to me when i just plainly did not want to stay back for night study. i did not promise you either. what you said really put me down and just showed me what a 'good friend' you are.
i can't wait for promos to be over. so glad that monday is a public holiday, i can spend the whole day studying, i really don't want to get kick out of school. i really want to study hard in JC and get into a uni. also, because of the special someone. i guess i just have to put in that extra effort and determination to study hard and i'll make it.
i can't believe you actually said all those stuff just to convince me to stay back for night study, then when you can't persuade me, you just said bye and walk off. have you thought of how i was feeling? how can you be so petty?
i feel that i am losing the smile on my face. with every single day passing, i feel more and more depress. maybe because of the stress i am having for promos, maybe because of all the problems that i'm facing now, maybe because i miss you. i don't know how i am going to survive in school when sk graduates. i am going to miss her so much, she is the only person i can talk to about anything and everything. i feel so lost like how i normally will feel when i'm sad. i don't want to disturb sk, i know she is preparing hard for A level's and i want her to do well, but at the same time, i have no one to turn to. i really feel like telling my mum all my problems and how i am feeling now, but i just can't. i just can't say it out to her. all i need now is someone to care for me and believe in me, i just need someone to be next to me, hearing me out and just give me a hug to assure me. i know you will say that i deserve it, because i'm the one who caused myself to feel this way, but i really feel very helpless.
do you know that my mum asked about you today? i just plainly gave a nod and just ended that conversation. do you even know how hurting it was especially when you are my good friend? knowing the fact that i am a retainee...
i just feel like staying at home tmr, don't really feel like going TSOD. just want to be alone and just heal myself? maybe i should go to the beach, the place which i loved most. haven't been there since last year. i think i should, let the wind take away my sorrows.
i guess you don't know why i am so affected. it's because you are my good friend, not just a "mere classmate". someone that i will treasure and is important to me. i wouldn't be sad if you already "cement my mind" that you are insignificant.
i am going to show you people who look down on me and put me down that i can do well for my promos. not only do well, i'm going to do way better that you people. you all just wait and see. i guess i can only trust myself, that's how cruel this world is.
what's more, you actually said it in front of my face that i am going to get kick out of school. what the hell, just because i don't want to stay back for night study today? its just one pathetic day! do you know how demoralising it was for me? i bet you don't, because you don't even feel that you are wrong.
13 more days to promos :(
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i miss you :(
Aug. 31st, 2009 | 02:31 pm
i miss you so much, i really do.
i can't help but look out for you in sch, even though i know you are having lesson. its just this hope of just seeing you, you don't have to see me, you don't have to acknowledge me, just let me watch you from a far and i'll be happy. saw you a few times today in sch and it made me had mix feelings. i felt happy that i was able to see you, but i felt sad because i couldn't go say hi to you.
i kept peeping at you at the audi, you were near the left entrance and i was all the way up near the control room. i just can't stop looking at you. at times i thought our eyes met, but i guess it was just my own imagination. saw your class picture in the teachers' day video and the first person i saw was you. i couldn't control my tears from filling my eyes.
i felt so empty today at sch, without you. we usually meet at 9am during your break and after your break, we will walk together to our respective lessons. However, today was different. i walked with my classmates, feeling so empty and depress.
i don't know how i should face you in sch, i'm afraid that i will tear in front of you. i'm afraid that i wouldn't be able to control myself. i don't know, but the thing is, i still want to see you.
thank you so much for still being so sweet and encouraging. your sweetness empowers all my feelings and again, i can't help but cry.
i love you, i still do. i'll study hard for my promos and not let you down.
- thank you to my friends too, for the encouragement and all, although i didn't tell you guys what happened, i know you guys will understand. thank you especially to sk, my buddy! thank you so much for your encouragement, thank you so much for being there for me even when its just before your prelims.
wait for me at the finishing line, don't run away!
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zzz...
Aug. 30th, 2009 | 12:23 am
It has been a long time since i blogged. well, became fatter, sadder, more stressed up, ok to be fair happier at times. hai, zzz. today's senior dance was good, did many stunts and all. manage to perspire quite a bit and the new stunts are fun.
oh well, promos are coming, its a month away. hope i can do well, i have to anyway. oh man, sometimes i dread going to sch not because of studies but other stuff. don't exactly have a permanent reason. hai, zzz. i think mrs wang is really nice, she's like my favourite teacher and i think she is the best. she is so caring and the best part is, she treats everyone equally. no form of favouritism. i think that is a very important aspect of being a teacher. anyway, i saw zhang lao shi the other day, really miss her so much. she is someone that i really respect, she has helped me so much and her encouragement are ever so impactful. after seeing her and receiving her hug, i realise how much time has passed. now jc life is so much more complicated than before. i think as we grow up, things will change and it will just complicate everything, including your life.
hai, i'm thinking hard. i'm trying to think logically. it's impt how i analyse stuff and finally come into a conclusion that is best for me and everyone. hai. feeling a little shitty now and i just need a break. need a break from everything that's happening in my life. i just want to relax and feel happy. just like how i always feel when i'm young. oh well, i'll be able to deal with it. thank you sk so much! you made me feel so much better.
sometimes i just don't feel like saying anything about my feeling. well, i just feel that no one will actually understand what i'm saying because ultimately, i'm the one feeling that way. hai, sometimes i'm just too lazy to repeat the whole story out to someone, sometimes i just see no need in saying out, sometimes i just don't really see a purpose in saying it, sometimes i just wanna be alone. i believe i can heal myself, i don't know, maybe because i'm able to allow myself to think straight and recover quickly. maybe because i just believe that only i can cure everything i'm feeling, because i can choose for myself.
ahhhh, what the hell, whatever la, i'm so tired already.
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stay home tuesday
Jun. 23rd, 2009 | 01:50 pm
mood: hopeful
went to meet my zhi ji yesterday and it was great! we did a bit of work at her house and off we go to ice cream chef! whoohoo, favourite hideout. haha. we talked a lot, i felt really good after talking to her.she made me realise a lot of things and most importantly she understands! felt really great and hopeful after that. i really love how we can talk about anything and everything under the sun. SO GLAD TO HAVE YOU CHO SOEK KHERN!
had ballet at night but it ended up to be a bonding session. haha, but it was great because my ballet teacher shared with us a lot of things. especially the cambodia trip that she went last year. it was a mission trip. all the experiences she told us really inspired me and i really want to go with her this year. i think its going to be a fruitful and eye-opening experiences. ahhhh, can't wait. hopefully baby can go with me too! YAY!
anyway, yesterday was a really great day because there was nothing to be upset about. had a great breakfast with dear andrew, met up with my zhi ji, had an even better dinner with dear andrew and finally bonding session with the ballet people. whoohoo, yesterday was a really great day. today shall be too, have to study at home. worried worried for the sick penguin, get well soon yeh. love you!
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dance
Jun. 9th, 2009 | 01:15 am
i just got back the interest in ballet and it hurts to know that i can't just have it all. i can't have everything i want altogether. hai, you wouldn't understand the feeling of only being able to watch but not being able to do it. the feeling sucks and i already felt it the time when everyone when on the shanghai trip except for me. hai. i know i should manage my time well and i know that i have to be happy with what i have. but still, i don't know why i just can't be fully gifted in something. sorry if i am ambitious but i wanna be the best at something. i don't want to just be able to do many things, i want to at least be the best at something so that i can just stop making all these painful decisions. it just feels too painful to let go something i love most. taking away dance from me is just like taking away my life. why can't i just dance? i just want to dance, i just want to perform. i want to stand on that stage, expose myself to different places. I JUST WANT TO DANCE! oh well, but still i'm not gifted enough to be able to do that.
anyway, just had pre-u sem last week. it was very enriching and enjoyable especially with my wonderful group mates. i'm all spurred up to study and do well for my exams. i really hope i can do it but my motivation is always crashed by different things. anyway, the discussions i went through during the pre-u sem was really interesting and informative. i learnt so much and understand so much more about the current situation of the world. i never regret joining pre-u sem!
oh ya, just for your information, i wasn't late this morning so please do not say that i'm never on time, thank you.
I LOVE DANCE AND IT WILL NEVER CHANGE!
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i'm sorry
May. 23rd, 2009 | 09:45 pm
anyway, i was really glad that you came to watch me perform last week. i'm sorry that i suck and i am a freaking loser. i am sorry for being so insensitive. i am sorry for spoiling your mood. i am sorry for that fuck-ed up attitude. i am sorry for not being as good as the rest. i am sorry for always being tired. i am sorry for not knowing how to care for you. i am sorry for wasting your effort. i am sorry for wasting your time. i am sorry that i'm a sucker.
i really miss the ex-cos. i miss soek khern too. i miss kc. i miss zhang lao shi. i miss my old self. i remember how zhang lao shi always has her own way to make me feel better. her words are so strong that it had an impact on me. i remember how she always encourages me and give me a hug after that. i miss mrs teo too. i will never forget the day she told me that she will pray for me for my o levels. i miss all the caring teachers in kc. now i am unable to find teachers like that in jc. i don't like speaking to the FTSC, she just makes me feel worse. i can't express what i feel to anybody, not even those who are close to me. i can't express myself to my mum too.
ahhhh, i miss the times when i was young. i guess i was better then. i miss my father, i miss spending time with him at the playground and the arcade. even though i still see him now, it feels all so different. i guess i don't deserve anything, that's why everything is taken away from me slowly. i'm sorry for wasting the world's resources and wasting space in this world.
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dance:)
May. 11th, 2009 | 12:08 am
mood: 
lonely
anyway, rehearsals had been rather intensive recently and will continue to be until the performance. i guess i'm finally able to improve by a little bit. at least it doesn't make me feel as dicouraged. i feel much more confident to perform. its not as if i'm already there, but at least i had moved on. i'm really glad that the choreographers and the teachers are so patient. i'm so glad that they didn't give up on me even though i'm the weakest there. ahhhh, feeling all so emotional right now. haha, but i'm really thankful and its a great feeling :).
i guess i'm rather insensitive. yeh, i'm sorry. i guess i concentrate too much on dance that i've neglected something that is so important to me. i guess i've to stop being so selfish before i lose everything that is closely related to me.
ahhh, i feel so stuck. there's this horrible feeling in me that i can't express. :(:(:(
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May. 9th, 2009 | 01:33 pm
haha, have been really busy for the past one month and so many things happened! i don't even have time to catch a breather! everything is like going on and on and on and on. haha, oh well, at least time passes really fast like this.
school has been alright these few days and i love the company of my friends! that's with the exception of the times they made fun of me :) anyway i love getting high in class with them and getting the teachers angry. haha, ok ok not the getting teachers angry part. tutorials are piling up and i can hardly find time to do them. i guess the only work that i'll never ever do is GP! haha. ahhhh its time to change! i have to buck up man! oh yes i'm so glad that the H1N1 shit has dropped to a yellow alert! which means, no need temperature taking everyday! its so stupid when they push our timetable back by half an hour thanks to temperature taking.
rehearsals have been great recently, probably because i started to give my 100%! really regret not giving my best the previous times. i kind of pulled the whole team down as well as demoralised myself. i guess hard work really pays off, so i'm going to work very hard for the performance that's coming up this week! i guess sometimes it's just plain laziness that cause me to be like that. however, its usually at these times where i really realise how much i love dance! i'm going to work hard for it! even though i have to pause a while for my studies, i'll still make sure i go for company classes regularly so that i'll be able to get my body ready for the next performance! I LOVE DANCE!
i guess life has been really great and i'm thankful for all the people that i am granted with! oh yeh and the opportunities too! i'm really blessed and i'm going to make sure that i will give my best so that i can be accountable for the people i love and love me :)
I LOVE YOU ANDREW TAN WEI FENG! :):):):)